Definition of TRANSITION
a : passage from one state, stage, subject, or place to another : change
b : a movement, development, or evolution from one form, stage, or style to another
Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
A Bible verse that had once been hanging on my fridge for at least 2 years. Something that God had spoken to me and I immediately posted it in our home to read multiple times each day.
There are many transitions in life. From those that happen day-to-day [tiny and minute] to those that happen once in a lifetime [life-altering and pathway changing]. It seems right now my life in another one of those major changes that fall likely somewhere in the middle of that spectrum of CHANGE.
We’ve gone from Fall to Winter. The decor in my house has changed from leaves and pumpkins to twinkle lights, snow and trees. I’ve put up our Christmas tree and even though the season is just beginning we have already completed some of our yearly traditions; two of which happen to be near and dear to my heart as most traditions are.
- We put turtle doves on our Christmas tree each year. I bought Adam a set for Christmas [representing us] when we were dating in high school [man they are SO old now]. I played the now probably cheesy part in the movie “Home Alone 2-Lost in New York” where the homeless woman and Kevin share the turtle doves. Yeah, I am cheesy like that. Noah got his own when he was born; Dominic did as well. When we adopted [yep you guessed it] they got theirs too. We now have a family of turtle doves on the tree. They are the last of the ornaments to go on. We have transitioned through the years from high school sweethearts to a married couple with a few kids. We have weathered many transitions in just that sentence alone!
- We have ornaments that represent each of our family members that are no longer with us. Each one of my grandparents are gone. We have a red bird, a tractor, a man fishing, a gold glittery flower, a silver glittery wire angel, A Merry Christmas sign that ‘Big C’ picked our to represent his granny, and a picture ornament of Angie. All of them we cherish as they are a physical picture of something that reminds us of those special people in our life. This year we have to pick out another one. Transition. Sometimes it happens whether we like it or not.
It is crazy how every time I sit down to write something, Romans 12:2 is involved. I assure you this is not happening by accident NOR on purpose on my part. Here I am again, sitting to write out some things that will help me work though my strange thinking about all the transition that is being thrown my way right now and ONCE AGAIN. . . Romans 12:2.
There is it again.
I love how He gently reminds and reassures me over and over and over and over and over [well you get the point]. I must be hard-headed, it takes me a while.
It is CRAZY
It took me over a year to start this blog as I mentioned previously. I always blamed it on the fact that I did not know what to name it. So fitting I think.
1-2 So here’s what I want you to do, God helping you: Take your everyday, ordinary life—your sleeping, eating, going-to-work, and walking-around life—and place it before God as an offering. Embracing what God does for you is the best thing you can do for him. Don’t become so well-adjusted to your culture that you fit into it without even thinking. Instead, fix your attention on God. You’ll be changed from the inside out. Readily recognize what he wants from you, and quickly respond to it. Unlike the culture around you, always dragging you down to its level of immaturity, God brings the best out of you, develops well-formed maturity in you.
And I am back once again at Romans 12:2
I looked up the definition of CHANGE
I love this one: to make radically different : transform
Our lives have been made radically different with adoption. Before you say “here she goes again” – hang on one more second. Sometimes it is not all roses. Right now we are dealing with ‘Big C, Little C, and Doodle’s’ big sister. We are faced with having to decide how much contact we [they] are going to have. UCK! So many thoughts. What we choose now affects the future drastically in lots of different directions [DOUBLE UCK] One minute we are traveling down the adoption road thinking “Whew, it’s smooth sailing for a while. . . glad those bumps are behind us” and the next thing we know “WHAM!” My adopted son thinks it would be better to be living back with his biological family [did not see that coming].
T R A N S I T I O N
We now have two [TWO] tweenagers. Almost teenagers, not kids but tWEENagers. Navigating these waters is transition every single day it seems. Lord help me!
That is not even the tip of the iceberg of transition going on in this Tracy household right now.
‘Little C’ is getting glasses
C O M I N G S O O N I N 2 0 1 2
‘Baby J’ should either transition out or in for good
We are looking to expand our very literal “tent stakes” and get a bigger home [we are busting at the seams here]
Of course the kids will change grades and we will move to another new school with having middle-schoolers in the fall
The BIGGEST change is Children’s Lantern
I am most humbled that God has called us to take on this project for Him. With taking on this foundation and becoming the administrators [both Adam and I working together] Adam has had to step out of his position at Family Christian Center as Children’s Pastor. This means we are taking the LARGEST step of faith that I can think of that we have taken in our lives to date. God knows the plans He has for us. I know we have been called. I shall rest in His peace and stand on the fact that He has plans to prosper us and give us a hope and future.
Just last night at church, Adam and I talked about how the kids have grown. He began as the Children’s Pastor there when the kids that are currently 5th graders were in kindergarten. [Okay, to NOT cry while typing] These kids are a part of us. We have watched them grow and change [physically, mentally and most importantly SPIRITUALLY] over the last few years. It is completely hard to let go at times. It is comfortable to stay where you are for many reasons. It is time for us to transition. God has amazing plans for this ministry at FCC and for the leaders coming in. I have no doubt that God will bless the kids and they will continue to grow and learn. It is time to transition for them as well. Fresh ideas and new perspectives, they are a good thing.
Just as all of these things sound depressing, sad or HARD for that matter. . . would I give them up to not have transition? Growing pains? To be stretched? Not in a million years! I would not trade in my three adopted kids for any reason- especially not for the tiny reason of having to figure out our new relationship with a bio-sibling or because my 11-year-old told me how he really feels. Would I trade in my time spent with the amazing kids at FCC? Not in a million years! They have taught me about myself and they have allowed me to be a part of their lives.
I instead want to readily recognize what He wants from me.
“A new birth often involves a false alarm, much pain, lots of pushing, plenty of screaming & transition. The result is always worth the labor.”
Maybe it is because I am a woman, but this quote hit me smack in the face about transition. Oddly [yeah right] it went right along with all of these TRANSITION thoughts I’ve been having this week.
“The result is always worth the labor”
“It made a different to that one”
“A win is a changed life”
I must embrace it. Be made radically different. Be changed from the inside out readily recognizing what He wants from me. He knows the plans.